hallo

[koncupiscence]

i'm posting every day this week! i'm just going to do it, damn it. i've no idea about what, but i'll figure it out.

like right now... um... how about a weekend wrap up.

saturday:
did a bit of gardening here at work (we have two sidewalk gardens and a planter box). then i spent the rest of the afternoon moving stuff into my new (to me) dresser! between craigslist and thrift stores, i've recently acquired a dresser, a desk, and a trundle bed for the guest room/office. shit's finally coming together. \o/ for the past two months i've been living with a good portion of my clothes still in bags on my bedroom floor, but this weekend they all found a home. ahhhhhhh, such a glorious feeling. saturday night i went out to dinner and then drinks for a friend's ex-girlfriend's birthday (yeah :|). due to her friends not understanding how bills work, and not wanting to make a stink on her birthday, i ended up spending an extra 20 bucks so the waiter didn't get the shaft. despite this nonsense, we had a pretty great time, and i re-discovered my love for bombay saphire. nommmmm.

sunday:
was meant to be equally as productive. i was going to garden at the house and then work on the desk/office where everything is still a giant pile of CHAOS. but instead i watched tv, bought a bunch of comic books, and re-read my LJ entries from 2006 - my last year in nyc. man, i really hated my job. i pretty much only posted about that and orlando bloom.


this week there needs to be grocery shopping and major cleaning, especially attacking that office. i have three weeks until K2 arrives and that room has to be habitable. right now it is a junk room/giant shoe closet. so much to do, but whatever, bc in less than a month we will be ON OUR WAY TO HAWAII! \o/ i've never been! i can't wait! bring me a mai tai! \o/


as for fandom content, i guess mcr might be releasing their third and final video of the killjoys trilogy this week? and i am having all the ridiculous emotions. i don't usually get like this. these things don't usually bother me. ghost of you video? whatever. blah blah mikey dies. it's not real. it's a video. they're 'acting.'

but with these videos? idkkkkk, i'm so emotionally invested in these characters. i've only watched the sing video maybe three times? it just UPSETS ME SO MUCH. some of those images are burned into my brain and make my heart want to cave in on itself (korse shooting gerard, FRANK CLOSING THE DOORS *WORST*). one of the guys described it as 'a suicide mission,' so i'm pretty sure that they're dead. if i felt confident that they weren't dead, i'd have no problem watching the damn video. but... i think gerard likes the idea of them sacrificing themselves for this little girl, for the greater good.

but me? my soul ABHORS that outcome, BECAUSE THEY'RE DEAD. AND NOW THEY CAN DO NOTHING TO HELP. IT'S OVER and it fucking blowwwwwwws. so i've clung to this little ball of hope that maybe they're not really dead dead (even though they totally are ;_;). i mean, plenty of fic-writers have figured out a way to make that happen, surely THEY CAN TOO. but, guys, what if they don't? ;_; i'm so scared to find out how it all ends... (not to mention the beloved fic that is waiting in the wings... waiting for this finale. my heart, it is doomed. ;_;)

i TOTALLY get that these are ridiculous feelings. it's not real! it's a VIDEO, not even a full length feature (where i have a history of not dealing with deaths well - mr. orange LIVES, GODDAMN IT). but... whatever. IT IS WHAT IT IS.

SO YAYE NEW VIDEO. excitement! trepidation! fearrrr. ;_;

Comments

[philosiraptors.livejournal.com]

okay so I swear I had other stuff to comment about but




mr. orange LIVES, GODDAMN IT


THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

[azewewish.livejournal.com]

Have they actually said what SONG yet??? I feel so out of the loop.

Also, HI!!! I was just thinking about you!! I sent you a text & everything. Glad the house is coming together!!!!!

[drinkingstars.livejournal.com]

Can I ask you the stupidest question about Killjoys verse? Ugh I'll go to gmail it's too embarrassing.

[clarkward.livejournal.com]

HAWAIIIIIIIIIIII

i want to come to your house too please

[wasoncedelight.livejournal.com]

I am JUST BARELY resisting a getting lei'd joke about your impending Hawaii vacation. JUST BARELY. I am the twelvest.

And hi, I'm so far out of the loop I didn't even know about the new video, whaaaaaaaaat. I AM AFEARED, KRIT. I still get very emotional at the Sing video! But this: i think gerard likes the idea of them sacrificing themselves for this little girl, for the greater good? Ugggggh, I think you're right and while part of me is like, oh, of course, he totally would, the other part of me is all DON'T BE DEAD OMG. ;_______;

[tuesdaysgone.livejournal.com]

I can't even allow myself to think about the video. Like. I just. I am in a weird bubble of "this will either destroy me or blow me away. or possibly both." that it sounds like you are in too. And then I have to try to reconcile that with my own ideas about what's happening in the Killjoys verse. #sensitivewriterproblems

[berreh.livejournal.com]

You made so much progress this weekend! House stuff ftw.

Also I'm not in that fandom, but I can definitely relate to the feeling of NO I DO NOT ACCEPT THIS OUTCOME THX

[kiltsandlollies.livejournal.com]

HOUSE HOUSE HOUSE. :D And it seems to me like you balanced the weekend hella well. *nod*

[fleurdeliser.livejournal.com]

HAWAII! \o/ :D :D :D :D :D

I am just *HANDS* over the eminent release of the video. At this point, I think I just want to KNOW, you know?

[morebliss.livejournal.com]

Yum bombay saphire! I have a feeling I might need a bottle on hand when the video comes out. We can cling to each other and weep. ♥______;

[bunniewabbit.livejournal.com]

You are not alone in your feelings about the video(s). I don't want it all to just be one big downer! Didn't I read somewhere that the last video would be the Killjoys equivalent of "Return of the Jedi"? Or is that just wishful thinking on my part?

Also, I had assumed the song would be "Kids from Yesterday," since that was their most recently announced single, but I have no other basis for that assumption.

I read your comment above about tuesdaysgone's fic, and I agree. I can't wait to see what she does with the third one. That said, have you read "James Cameron Got It Wrong"? I thought that one was really nicely done, as well.